I’m just not ready. They are just not ready.
Am I communicating? Growing up I talked A LOT! I was a curious child, I asked a lot of questions because I wanted to know everything. I joined my quizzing team in First grade because they gave me the temporary answers I seeked. The drama club helped me explore my creative side and discover my creative abilities. Even up to high school I was still inquisitive. I was fortunate enough to attend a project based school which gave me the ability to research a lot of different topics. I was always receiving to better myself but never communicating to better my audience. And that my friends is a perfect example of my personal life. Am I communicating? I stopped talking when I was ten years old, I had so much to say but nobody to listen. I gave up talking because I wanted to take on listening as a task. I became a introvertly extrovert. My personility is what drew people in but after they came I didn’t know how to maintain them because the Jael they saw was just the surface and I didn’t know how to unveil my demons to them one by one. So I struggled and still struggle till today. I don’t know how to bare it all without constantly feeling like the world is against me. My problem is communication. I don’t know how to explain myself so I automatically do the easiest thing which is apologize and shut down. I understand that this is becoming an issue so I decided to talk to a therapist, somebody I could bare it all with. I’ve worked so hard to build that relationship and I’m working hard to build the relationships around me. I understand it takes time and risks but I hope I’m ready for it.
I’m curious to know if you struggle with the same things as me… if you do, you are not alone.
That’s all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!
Peace, love and happy shopping
