First of all, we’ve got lots to catch up on since our last chat. For the past two weeks I have been going through hella emotional stress, some of my own making but let’s not even focus on that. I have been going to through an existential early twenties life crisis. I came to the conclusion that my reason for waking up every morning is not solid enough. I need to have a plan that actually includes me. Okay to clear up any confusion let me start from the beginning.
So a week ago I got news that Soul Fresh was breaking up. SoulFresh is a Liberian rap group. I’m usually not invested into these things but for some reason I just felt out of it. They both have been friends for almost thirteen years, that’s a long ass time! Their relationship ended over one of them being inconsiderate and the other enduring. It reminded me of the previous friendships I’ve had. There’s this huge shift that is going on in my life currently hence the red hair for new beginnings. My old friends are back but as different people and they have met a very evolving woman. They have accepted her as they should and right now we’re all getting to know each other.
So my problem here is I don’t know how to navigate this new life of “intention.” Like I previously stated my reason for waking up every morning is not substantial enough. I have not been living my life with intention till the very moment I realized it. I know what my purpose is in life and how it’s tied to everyone. I know what I want out of life, my goals, my plans, etc. But what amazes me is how scared I get when I think about how successful I could be and how much pressure that is. I’m fighting to make each day count. I lived daily without a plan for each day, but now I’m continually checking, planning and asking myself what I can do within the 24 hours I have to make my future better. Life is better lived one day at a time. Death is upon us, and nothing is guaranteed so live life with intention and stop postponing essential things. That’s the tea.
That’s all for now until next time stay fabulous!
Peace, love and happy shopping
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