Here I am with another life update after I sworn I wouldn’t do one because it’s just too personal and chaotic.
I think I did a good job keeping things at bay these past few months when my life was literally falling apart. I dropped hints here and there in my posts but I never got the chance to explain and I don’t think I wanted to explain… I’m just here to update you lovely folks.

I have no idea how to start this or where to begin… Firstly I thank God for sanity and peace of mind. Secondly I want to thank all of you guys for allowing me to sometimes vent on this platform without any form of judgement. Thank you. I’m not perfect I’ve a lot of  mistakes and will probably continue to make mistakes but I always acknowledge my mistakes and take responsibility for them.

One of the mistakes I made recently was trusting someone with my happiness. I ignorantly trusted that my happiness lays within the hand of another human and not God my creator and so as always it blew up in my face and me being a dramatic person I took it hard. There were lies, accusations, finger pointing and a lot of hurt feelings but at the end of the day all of that needed to happen for me to finally see that in the end things are not really what I think they are.

I was broken for a few months, went in a sunken place and almost hit depression again, but I had to make a decision for myself to do better and be better. I can’t say that I’m 100% okay but I understand that it’s a journey. There’s more ahead of me and I know it but I’m just taking my time to heal correctly and I’m protecting my new found peace.  At the end of the day everything works out for those who love God.