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When I realized I was scarred
By: Jael Providence
When I realized I was scarred
I did not cry
I did not hide
I did not make a move
I was not mad
I was not sad
I was not moved
I thought it was the beginning of my end.
I lived,
I laughed,
And I loved.
It was the beginning of my end.
My heart was a riot
My mind a battle field.
The quiet nights
Lonely beds and rioting hearts .
The beginning of my end was when I confessed to myself that I loved you.
I liked what we had because I liked you.
Amazingly you were the beginning of my end.
Sweet poison
Slowly drowning
Faded voices
Non discerning
Amazingly you were my regret
Broken heart beats
Faded foot steps
Empty words
And faded voices but
When I realized you broke me,
I did not hope
I did not wander
I did not wait or plunder
Instead I wondered
I leaped
Caught a flight and exhaled
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
I learned to love,
I learned to love,
I learned to love.
The way my father showed me on the cross.
I caught a flight and exhaled
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
My weary old heart, broken and torn pumped for the first time,
I heard it beat for the first time,
Then I knew I was healing.
When I realized I was scarred
I learned to love all over again.
That’s all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!
